Complications.I know I'm not Tumblr famous. Or famous at all for that matter. But I still think and analyze things as other people do, only maybe a little more complex. Today is my sisters birthday, and I was asked to accompany her to the beach. Which is literally just down stairs. And yet I couldn't be arsed to get sandy or make it to the beach, which resulted in her reminding me how selfish I am. "When it's a day for others, you go out of your way to do things for the ones you love." Why? If I don't want to go to the beach, I'm not going to go out of /my/ way to make a mess of myself. But it was when she pointed out that I'm so selfish I wrong myself that I had to stop a think for a moment. She's right, so how exactly does one cope with themselves when they're so selfish and self loathing that they wrong themselves. Over and over. I know I'm not the only one with this mental struggle, but I'm suffering by myself. Is it wrong to be so bitter you don't care? About anything? And what do you do when you want to care and change but can't, because no matter how you look at it; this is who you are.